Humans!

After... what, 5 posts (haha) and 5 years, I'm back betch!  We had a short relationship, but now I'm here for the long hall.  Love you!

I will be posting more me thinks.  Here and there, and maybe on another platform which I will direct you to if this happens.

But what's up!?

I've been living life, sometimes bad, and sometimes really good!  You all know how this goes. It's a shit show mostly. So, I rounded out that year playing in Portugal, then went to the country known as the happiest place on earth (read this fact in The Monacle, so naturally it had to be true, (which turned out not to be true)) but still a lovely place... Denmark!  After this I made a short hop to Sweden for another season, then the land of vampires, Romania.  Last but not least I had to chalk it up with my brits, landing in the U.K. and having the worst season ever haha!  But, lovely place!

So where am I now!?  I'm back in the midwest, for now.  Finding my footing, which looks like a total shit show.  Turns out that having tons of experience shooting a little ball into a hole will not land you at the top of the working totem poll when one decides to move on.  More on this later.  Turns out the parents were right.  But I will never tell them so. No, I wasn't totally oblivious to this fact, I just thought I'd have to work hard and eventually things would happen.  Enter my totally unrealistic timeline of when this would happen, here.  So I'm in the mix... rock bottom I would call it.   I wasn't expecting how hard hard would be, and I'm sure in the end will have been exactly what I need.  Also, the resilience of the human survival brain is incredible.  Again, more on this later.  I'm navigating this space, some days well, some days, not.  I'm going to use this platform to show what this looks like a bit.  To be real.  To be honest. To show you my journey in hopes it can help someone else.  Not saying my journey is more right than anyone else's.. maybe I'll just share a book that helped or strategy that you resonated with, or a healer that you dig.  I'm sharing my journey of finding clarity and hopefully finding and obtaining everything my authentic code calls for.  Lets see how this goes!

Current obsessions:

John Whineland- I want to live in his pocket, not in a creepy way.
Books:
    Letting Go
    A Course In Miracles
    The Game of Life and How to Play
    EMDR
    Biology of Belief
    More Truth Will Set You Free
Lacey Phillips workshops!!!!!!!!
Seeking expanders
Cutting down on Social Media time- too much time honestly drives me fucking nuts I've witnessed
Guru Jagat
Nature
Tons of alone time
Feeling my feelings
Weekly meeting with friends who are completely positive influences
Weeding out the weeds- energies, humans, experiences that do not add to life in a positive way
Working on finding a creative outlet- not so good at the moment
Stop eating everything in my path- not so good at the moment
excercisio- not so good at the moment
Podcasts!!!!
    Expanded podcast
    Mark Groves
    Almost 30
    Super Soul Sunday- obvs. erything Oprah

PS loves!

I'm working on a YouTube channel to share my experience in the most authentic way possible, also a little bit about being vegan.  Oh, I've been vegan for about 4 years now, did I share that?  Not sure. So, there's that.  I'll share that a little bit too.  Like for instance what I eat in a day, what I ate while being a professional athlete etc...  should be fun.

k love you guys! Share soon. xx